My passion for my job is pointing me there, but it's scary. So much new territory & so many things I don't know and am fearful I'll mess up. I am a bit of a perfectionist. I own that now. I remind myself daily that my passion will guide me to success & I need to allow myself to grow and learn. It won't be perfect. No one expects that but me.
College courses on management scared me away from ever wanting to manage people and achieve more, and I'm finding that they were mostly wrong. I took them too literally. Can you really never be friends with your coworkers & the people you manage? No, I think you can. And I intend to give it a whole-hearted try. I think it's all about boundaries really, and I can do both a still stay me. I can be friendly & kind yet still firm when I need to be. It's all about believing in yourself and what you are doing.
I'm going to try 'leaning in'. I'm going to lean until I fall over and if that happens, I'll dust myself off and smile because I tried. I'll always wonder what may have been otherwise.